patience and myself

Today, I am going to introduce myself a little better. In my profile, one of the things listed is interests, and in this place I put "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness." These are interests of mine, but I usually don't spend my days pursuing happiness.
My real interests are music and writing. I do other things, but I am most interested in those two things. I can't tell you why. I don't know why I like some things more than others.
I write music more than I write stories, since songs can be written about eighty times faster than a novel, and inspiration comes more frequently. Someday, hopefully soon, it is my intention to record some of these songs.
A few days ago, I ordered an extremely useful device called a mixer, which is the last device I need to be able to record. It's due to arrive today, and so I've been glancing out the window every thirty seconds since I woke up this morning. It's almost two o'clock, and it still hasn't arrived--if it had, I wouldn't be writing this: I'd be recording. And here's the reason I'm saying all this:
Patience is one of the fruits of the spirits mentioned in Galatians 5:22-23. The fruits of the spirit are important, because they reveal who has the Holy Spirit dwelling inside of them. If you are displaying the fruits of the spirit, God can work through you. If you aren't, He can't. So what I'm wondering is, based on the patience I'm shown to have, is the Holy Spirit revealed in me?
I don't like to wait, but patience isn't about enjoying long waits. It's about bearing them out calmly. That's the opposite of what I'm doing by looking out the window every thirty seconds.
OK--so what? Why does it matter that I'm eager to get the thing that I'm waiting for? How could that prevent God from working through me? Before I can answer that, I have to answer a different question. What does God want to do through me?
Through me--and through everyone--God's goal is essentially the same. He wants us to spread His name throughout the world (Mark 16:15).
So how is my impatience going to impede that task? Impatience is a refusal to bear any discomfort or delay. God's goal for us is to show love, and love is patient. It bears all things. So my impatience is actually causing me to love less. And since God is love, and I am loving less, I now have less of God in me than I did yesterday when I was more patient.
That's all I have to say. The UPS truck still hasn't arrived, but maybe this has helped me to be more patient (or not).
Goodbye, valiant reader
Mitchell